Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Gobble, Gobble Cupcakes

November 23, 2011

Working hard on the first round of cupcakes...
Yes, I have every cupcake tool imaginable, thanks to my awesome sister, Shannon.  We've taken my cupcake skills to the next level...

I'm not sure if you can see the clock here, but please take notice.  It's after 9pm and I've been decorating for what feels like an eternity!  This Momma is TIRED!

All boxed and ready to be donated to some deserving patients.  A special thanks to my husband for constructing the boxes.  I'm already thinking about how to improve my packaging for next year's cupcakes!
Another dozen cupcakes that will be enjoyed by the Walsh family in Arnold, CA.  We are headed out Thanksgiving morning with cupcakes and pumpkin rolls!
Last but not least, a close up of my little turkey!  These little guys are a lot of work but so much fun!  I didn't get to sample one ahead of time this year, so I hope they taste good, too!



Friday, November 18, 2011

The sweet sounds of a heartbeat...

November 18, 2011 (9 weeks)

I've been trying for about a week to pick up the twinkies heartbeats on the doppler.  I think I finally found one of them tonight!!!  It's such an amazing sound!  Huge THANKS to my bestest, Katie, for lending me her doppler!!!  Oh what a fun addition to pregnancy!  :) 

Thursday, November 17, 2011

A BIG sigh of relief!

November 17, 2011

Let me just start with a HUUUUGE sigh of relief!  The babies are GREAT!!!  We saw two beautiful and strong heartbeats, again!  I'm still amazed at how much they grow in just a few days!  Baby A is beating away at 164bpm and Baby B has a heart rate of 174bpm.  I couldn't be happier to see them thriving and okay!

My Dr. was out so i saw a different doctor, who was so sweet!  She did an exam after the ultrasound and said everything looked great!  My blood pressure is a little high but she said thats to be expected with the stress of bleeding in pregnancy.  She put me on pelvic rest until the end of the first trimester as a precaution. 
Anyways, another picture to add to my growing collection:

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

A stumbling block...

November 16, 2011

If there is one thing I've learned in life it is, where there is joy there also comes fear and heartache. I really think the best things in life don't come easy.  Tonight I find myself in the midst of what I'm hoping is just a minor stumbling block.  (Read: Trying not to panic).  I'm hoping that this is just a stumbling block on the way to an amazing journey.

I haven't been sleeping well.  Besides waking up to pee every hour or so, I have a hard time falling back to sleep.  But I'm really not complaining.  I love being pregnant and I love these babies.  Today, I was so tired and feeling a little cold coming on that I decided I really needed a day to take it easy.  So after we got Ryder off to school, I grabbed my laptop and my work stuff and cuddled into bed.  I officially declared it a "Work from Bed" day.  I actually got a lot done and even manged to squeeze in a 2 hour nap in the middle of the day.  It was definitely needed and when I woke up, I noticed I was running a low grade fever.  So, I grabbed a snack and headed back to bed to return some calls and emails.  I really wasn't feeling well so I got up to ask Joe if he would pick Ryder up from school.  As I walked from our room to the office, I felt a little trickle.  It's not really funny, but I thougth I peed my pants.  I turned right around and went to the bathroom only to find, I was bleeding.  My heart sunk.  I called for Joe who immediately came running.  He brought me my phone and I called my dr.  At this point its 4:35pm and I know that its going to be hit or miss to get them on the phone.  Frustrated and nervous, I leave a message.  Five minutes later, my call is returned.  She asked a million questions and determined I need to be in bed for the rest of the night.  She told me I'm only to get up to go to the bathroom.  And that I should come in tomorrow morning for another ultrasound to see what is going on.  *Sigh*.  I wonder, when I will get to go for an ultrasound where I'm not paralyzed with fear???

Amongst all of this, I am trying desperately to stay positive!  I have a hard time believing that I would be given such an amazing gift just to have them taken away.  I want to believe these babies are going to be ours to keep.  I've been trying to distract myself with TV, texts, Facebook, etc.  But as hard as I try, I can't get this out of my mind.  I know its going to be a long night!  All I can do is pray and continue to believe that they will be okay!  They have to be okay!!! 

Monday, November 14, 2011

8 Week Ultrasound

November 14, 2011

So, I've discovered the "upside" of being labeled a "High Risk Pregnancy"- Ultrasounds Galore!  I must admit that today was my 4th ultrasound.  It's truly amazing to see the week by week changes unfold right before your eyes.  Today's appointment was nothing short of amazing (although, I'm sure I will say that about ANY visit I get to see or hear my babies!).  Today, was just another "check up" to make sure they are thriving and to keep a close eye on things in light of our recent loss and the risks associated with identical twins.

I had a new ultrasound tech today and she was a sweetheart!  She informed me that I've now had every tech in the office do my ultrasounds and she would be asking me to tell her who was the best.  I laughed and said, "I'll judge based off who gives me the MOST pictures."  Leverage.  She began the ultrasound and immediately I saw 2 GIANT babies!  I was amazed at how much they both had grown.  She took measurements of Baby A who measured 8w3d (1 day ahead) and had a heart rate of 174 bpm.  "Very Strong Heart Rate", She told me.  I was beaming with pride.  She moved onto Baby B.  Baby B measured 8w5d (3 days ahead) and had a heart rate of 165 bpm.  It really amazes me that at our 6 week ultrasound, Baby B was the twin our doctor was concerned was not going to make it.  Now Baby B, my over achiever, is my "big" baby!  I'm claiming Baby B as a go getter, one who likes to prove others wrong.  She gets that from her Mom.  (Yes today, I'll say she, tomorrow I'll say He).  I don't like 'it' and the 'he/she' stuff just gets tiresome.

Anyways, Joe had to work, the glory of a salesman on commission.  Since he couldn't be with me to see our babies, I asked the tech if she would mind if I video'd the ultrasound from my phone.  She was happy to oblige, scoring double points for the "Best Tech in Office" Award.  I cannot begin to express how fascinated and in love with these babies I am.  They are such little miracles!  They truly were the biggest shock of my life but I wouldn't have it ANY other way!!!!


And in keeping with the fairness, I certainly don't want one of these twinkies to get "Middle Child Syndrome" Here is a video of Baby B being measured.  I apologize for them being sideways. I apparently need a lesson in videography on my cell phone.  But, you get the point:


Lastly, today's ultrasound tech gets the award for "Best Tech in the Office" for not only allowing my amateur video, but also giving the most pictures (3 pics).  But here is my favorite of the 3: Both of my babies snuggled all cozy and totally clueless about the family they are apart of.  Your big brother can't WAIT to meet you two!!!!  He's got A LOT to teach you!   


Sunday, November 13, 2011

Twins- A miraculous gift!

November 13, 2011

Wow!  Life has been a whirlwind of emotions lately.  The first week after finding out we were having twins brought so much upon us.  We began to research and realized we would be needing new cars (we can't fit 3 carseats in ours), a huge increase in insurance costs, overwhelming day care costs, and not to mention the medical expenses we would likely take on with twins.  We had many days where we were in an absolute panic. 

After about a week of digesting all of this information, my morning sickness suddenly stopped.  And I felt amazing!  Now, anyone who has every experienced a miscarriage will tell you that this will cause you to panic!  And that's exactly what I did!  I called my doctor and left a ridiculous message about how I felt so good and how that worried me so much! Luckily, my drs office is amazing and they totally understand the emotion of pregnancy after miscarriage and told me to come right in.  So, on Monday, November 7th, Joe and I headed back to the Drs office for a sneak peak.  My stomache was in knots and I couldn't help but think of Baby B, our very small and concerning twin.  It hit me like a TON of bricks how much I already loved BOTH of these babies!  And even though they were completely unplanned and the idea of twins was overwhelming, I couldn't bare the idea of losing EITHER of them!

When I arrived at the Drs office, they told me the ultrasound tech who specialized in twins was going to be doing my ultrasound today and that I would meet with my dr after to go over the results.  As soon as the ultrasound began the tech said, "Did your doctor tell you you are expecting triplets?"   I immediately sat up and said, "WHAT?!?!"  I think my blood pressure went through the roof.  Luckily, it was a false alarm.  As he began to look he said, "Here is Baby A" and measured him/her right at 7w3d with a heartrate of 156bpm.  "Next up, Baby B!"  He measured Baby B (our previous smaller twin) at 7w6d!  Our "little" twin had passed up the other!  And had a very strong heartbeat as well, also in the 150's.  I was so relieved.  He began to look around and began to explain that what he was looking for was to see what kind of twins we were having.  He said, "Congratulations!  You are having what we call monochorionic, diamniotic twins (mono/di) twins.  You might know this better as identical twins."  He immediately asked, "Did you do IVF?"  I said, "No. We didn't take any fertility meds and these are a complete and utter shock to us."  He began to explain that both of our babies would be either girls or boys.  Our twins share a placenta and the biggest concern about this Twin to Twin Syndrome where one twin gets all the nutrients from the placenta, while the other does not.  He explained that I am automatically considered to be a "high risk" pregnancy, as are all twin Moms.   I had already researched this as I suspected they were identical based off the first ultrasound so I wasn't too concerned, as I already knew what challenges we would face.  Anyways, everything looked great and our babies are thriving!

After the ultrasound, we met with our doctor and confirmed everything the tech had told us.  He told me that because I was carrying mono-di twins, I would need to be monitored more close to watch for TTTS and that starting at 16 weeks we would be doing ultrasounds every 2-3 weeks to make sure BOTH twins were "sharing" from the placenta.  He also said, "Let's go ahead and keep your already scheduled appointment on November 14th and make sure they are both still on track!" I have to admit, all these sneak peaks, really do wonders for my nerves!  Joe and I left the office and I was on cloud 9!  Our babies are thriving!!! 

Anyways, we shared the news with all of our family and friends.  We decided we need the support and that if anything happened we would want there support as well.  I cannot tell you what a miracle I feel like these babies are!  After all we have been through, to end up with spontaneous twins just amazes me!  It's such miraculous gift and I'm so thankful everyday to have them.  I cannot believe how big I'm getting so fast, but I will take getting fat for my babies any day of the week!!! My belly at 7w5d.  No hiding these babies!


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