A Rainbow Party for our RAINBOW babies….
WOW! A first birthday
party! A double First birthday party.
This is the party I’ve been planning for well over a year. I was dreaming of this party when these two
little peanuts still took up residency in my ever expanding belly. My girls.
My rainbow girls. This theme has
so much significance to me and to my girls.
Allow me to explain.
First and foremost. Our girls are
our rainbow babies. What is a rainbow
baby? “A "rainbow baby" is a baby that is born
following a miscarriage or still birth.”
I absolutely adore this term. I
will never forget the devastation I felt when I lost our 2nd
baby. The pain was intense and
real. I thought it would never end. I thought the wound would always stay open and
fresh. Nothing would ease the pain. And
then a few months later, I discovered I was pregnant. I was elated at the thought of having a
“rainbow baby”. I will never forget the
day I found out I was pregnant again. It
was October. It was rainy. I looked into the sky and saw a beautiful
double rainbow. I’ll never forget it
because I looked at that double rainbow and thought, “WOW! It’s a sign.
A double rainbow? That’s the baby
we lost and our new baby together. I
believed it. I smile while writing
this. Because I know now that that
double rainbow was a sign that I would be getting not just ONE rainbow baby,
but TWO rainbow babies!
The
other reason we chose to have a rainbow theme for the girls very first birthday
party is because of my Mom. My Mom was
an amazing writer. She loved to write
short stories and poems. Ever since I
could remember, I would read what she wrote.
She was very open with sharing her writings. I wish I could find the most touching piece
she ever wrote, but I’m afraid it only exists in my memory. She once wrote this amazing short story of a
mother who lost all of her children. The
story was about how they would meet again at the end of the rainbow. I remember reading it when I was a teen and
thinking it was so sad. But when my mom
passed, it was very comforting to me. At
her service we saw rainbows everywhere.
And to this day, when I see a rainbow, I know it’s a sign that Mom is
with us, watching over us. When I saw
that double rainbow the day I found out I was pregnant, I knew once again, she
was there. She was smiling down at
me. I imagine she knew that there was
two babies, long before me.
So,
because of all these amazing reasons is why we will celebrate our babies FIRST
birthday with RAINBOWS everywhere. And
we did! Most would say that I OVERDID it
at their birthday party. Some might even
say it was OVE THE TOP. I would say it
was just perfect! How can I not
celebrate these two perfect gifts that were given to me? How can I not put effort into making this party
elaborate? These girls were meant to
be. I truly believe this. We lost a baby, but were given two. I don’t know why we were given this precious
gift, but we were. And I do believe
there IS a reason. I may never fully
understand WHY? I don’t NEED to
understand why. I just want to celebrate
it. I want to enjoy it. And I want to share it with everyone we love
and care for. My rainbow babies have
turned one! We survived our first year
with twins!
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